Poems by smpalardy

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trapped in the forest

as the trees were culled
the light penetrated the forest
it’s powerful magic awakening a beauty
a woman of secret elegant charm
not seen for many a seasoncaptured and trapped
in the soil of the bayou
by the curse of a witch
envious and resentful
of the lady’s allureas the forest warms up
the lady struggles and pleads
to be freed from the realm
of the witches damnation
but her pleading goes unheeded

has the witch triumphed
will her evil prevail
with time the young beauty
gets drawn back into her tomb of earth
never again to be heard of again.

 

 
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my woman

a smile that gleams and shines on my day
piercing crystalline pools of brown
focus on mine and melt me away
succulent lips licking inviting a deep kisstalented, creative and hard to define
so many facets drawing me close
yesterday, and always forever
you are my dream, my lover, my musewe caress each other with abandon
passion pours in rivulets between our skin
as we join, you make me tremble with excitement
intensity reveals the palpable ardor

you made me yours from the moment we met
i made you mine wth my unending quest
today we are one for each other
true love in our color, true love in our pleasure

will you be mine forever I ask
you are my reason for living with joy
i will give you any gift of your desire each day
i am devoted to you in a most blissful way


Five Poems by smpalardy

my shelby

she sits quietly with unease
her heart is mean and strong
gleaming eyes sparkling ahead
her mouth gulping in air

 

flowing curves of sexy muscle
dominant and dynamic
dipped in liquid silver
she is a vigorous lady

– smpalardy



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my muse

my muse
sensual curves
consume my mind
she distracts
she compelsthe land is weaving
following her will
quietly giving her
reflections
liquid melding way afar

what golden gift awaits
this jagged interruption
is it of nature
or of man
a secret held by my sweet muse

– smpalardy


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beneath the rain

a tiny drop begins a rush 
bouncing off the tin sheets
of dull metal roofing
plink plunk plink

 

what once was insignificant
sheets of diamonds fall
waterfalls cascade and still
plink plunk plink

– smpalardy


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mind games

there lives in my head
a very strange lout
long in the wind
very short in the whata simple squatter
a guest in the house
throw him to the curb
he’s causing much doubt

jumble and muddle
i meld into the upset
raised up by that goon
thinking is hurting so much

why do i amuse him
playing into his games
i will myself stronger
shut out his intrusion

raised up by the fire
fueled by good thoughts
i finally dismiss him
casting him out from within

– smpalardy



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seeking my rainbow

my mama taught me well
ideals, faith, scruples
my pa trained me well
conduct, character, norms

 

i struggled with morality
wrestled with the judgment
i clashed with assumptions
standards, attitudes, ideology

filled with doubt and uncertainty
i agonized over my integrity
i was perturbed by my fantasy
the crux of my essence

i climbed the stone steps upward
directed, coached, expected
they were hard and distressing
on the core of my integrity

suddenly i came to see
i need not be disturbed
for high above the route i took
there shone my reality

no ambiguity, no agony
no turmoil or discomfort
there appeared above the path
the rainbow of my authenticity

all doubt dissipated from my mind
my spirit glowed with happiness
my rainbow awaited with bright hues
guiding my happiness and truth.

– smpalardy





It’s What We Do

REBLOG: I thoroughly enjoyed this post by Storyshucker and I highly recommend it to anyone who enjoys a lovely story with a kicker of a moral!

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While out walking yesterday evening I smelled sunscreen as someone passed by. In an instant I was mentally back on the beach waiting for cousins to come down from the house so we could get in the water together. I was also reminded of something I once wrote about years of our family’s summer traditions:

It’s a rustic, waterfront cottage on the Chesapeake Bay in an isolated cluster of other old cottages a mile or so off the main road. It’s been added on to over the last fifty-plus years and is filled with second-hand furniture, hand-me-down linens, and old pots and pans. To do anything from use the kitchen stove to turning on the water pump requires knowledge of idiosyncrasies so specific that they’re passed down like family history. There’s sand on the floor, the smell of salt water in the air, and to me it’s perfect.

The actual owner…

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Seeking My Rainbow – A Poem

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seeking my rainbow

my mama taught me well
ideals, faith, scruples
my pa trained me well
conduct, character, norms

i struggled with morality
wrestled with the judgment
i clashed with assumptions
standards, attitudes, ideology

filled with doubt and uncertainty
i agonized over my integrity
i was perturbed by my fantasy
the crux of my essence

i climbed the stone steps upward
directed, coached, expected
they were hard and distressing
on the core of my integrity

suddenly i came to see
i need not be disturbed
for high above the route i took
there shone my reality

no ambiguity, no agony
no turmoil or discomfort
there appeared above the path
the rainbow of my authenticity

all doubt dissipated from my mind
my spirit glowed with happiness
my rainbow awaited with bright hues
guiding my happiness and truth.

sm palardy

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TEDx – Collection #2

TED (Technology, Entertainment, Design) is a global set of conferences run by the private nonprofit organization Sapling Foundation, under the slogan “Ideas Worth Spreading”. TED was founded in February 1987 as a one-off event and the annual conference series began in 1990. TED’s early emphasis was technology and design, consistent with its Silicon Valley origins, but it has since broadened its focus to include talks on many scientific, cultural, and academic topics.

The main TED conference is held annually in Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada at the Vancouver Convention Centre. TED events are also held throughout North America and in Europe and Asia, offering live streaming of the talks. They address a wide range of topics within the research and practice of science and culture, often through storytelling.

TEDx conference events are independently organized.


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 




 

 

 

 

Zen Influences

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Here goes… the next in my series of photo exposes. 

Zen is a school of Mahāyāna Buddhism notable for its emphasis on practice and experiential wisdom. 

In a broader sense,   calling something or someone “Zen” signifies a calm and meditative nature; often combined with typical Japanese symbolism  and a decorative aspect.  Enjoy and relax!

 

 

 

A Little Slice of Zachary

Hello friends!
I am not a professional writer nor did I have an editor or proofreader.
I wrote this short fiction because I felt like it and it made me feel good.
Sooo… feel free to enjoy it (or not 😜 ) and make comments about whether or not you liked my story, but PLEASE NO COMMENTS ABOUT SYNTAX AND SUCH. THANK YOU!

 

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A billowing cloud of dust leaped through the air and landed with a thump on the rutted and narrow strip of loose soil and pebbles that led deep into the forest on the outskirts of Danby County. Had the sudden movement not sent all the little critters scooting back into the safety of the thicket, they would have seen that at the center of the intrusive explosion was young Zachary Blake, pumping the pedals of his bike with all his might as he careened down the hill towards his house. The loose soil and ruts beneath his wheels made steering particularly difficult but today nothing could slow him down as he raced to his destination – the safety of home.

 

Just as he came perpendicular to his driveway, Zach slammed on his brakes and his rear wheel swung around and pointed him up the drive. As he shot up the gravel drive, Zach took in his surroundings and started to calm down. Home at last. Home, where Ma and Pa took care of him; where nobody bullied or made fun of him.

 

The quaint single-story clapboard house sported a new coat of slate blue paint and the door and shutters were a brilliant white. The porch that ran the length of the front housed a swing at one end and two weather-worn rocking chairs with a huge pot of geraniums at the other. Lacy yellow curtains could be seen through the large living-room window. Expansive flower beds resplendent with an orgy of vibrant colors decorated the front of the house and up the drive to the corner of the house. Where there were no flowers, the front property was spotted with fragrant pine and robust maple trees from whose branches hung a multitude of homemade birdhouses and feeders.  It was truly a welcoming homestead.

 

When he reached the stone path that led from the drive to the house he disembarked from his bike and, after taking a few deep breaths to relax, Zach began walking towards the back of the property to his father’s garage where he stored his bike. As he turned the corner of the drive he came to a dead stop and his hands tautly gripped his handlebars. There, parked in front of the garage, was the county sheriff’s car. From inside the gaping maw of the door of the garage, he could hear the deep, bellowing voice of the sheriff and the muffled responses of Pa. The sheriff was at his home – his safe haven was compromised and it left him completely panicked.

 

Of course, his was not an entirely unusual reaction to finding Sheriff Duane at one’s house. The sheriff was quite imposing physically; his demeanor was even more so; and he had a booming voice that silenced all others. In short, he was a bully with a badge and he reigned with terror. Constantly the butt of much teasing and bullying, Zach found his ultimate nemesis in the the sheriff.

 

The sheriff had his back towards him so Zach stood as still as he could; still clinging to the idea that maybe, just maybe, the sheriff was not here about him. Then the men changed positions a bit and Zach could make out the pinched and tired face of Pa as he seemed to grow more and more haggard the longer he listened to the vitriol of the sheriff. Watching the interaction between the men made his breathing grow more shallow and the blood drained from his face. Zach’s palms grew sweaty and the handles of his bike slowly slipped from his tense grip until it came crashing down in a rattling heap at his feet. The crash came and all other sounds stopped.

 

Sheriff Duane Strathmore had been talking loudly and gesticulating wildly when he heard the crash of Zach’s bicycle hitting the ground. He stopped mid-sentence, dropped his arms and spun around to see what had made such a noise. Standing like a deer caught in headlights, there stood Zach with his mouth and his eyes wide open. He looked as if completely unsure as to whether he should bolt or faint. Before he could do either, Sheriff Duane recovered from his surprise and hollered at Zach; beckoning him to come to the garage immediately.

 

Zach did not respond well to being yelled at; it made his anxiety and distress soar. He did not move; he could not move. The sheriff took Zach’s lack of action as a lack of fear and respect so he hollered louder and moved towards Zach. Seeing the look of abject terror in his son’s eyes moved him and Zach’s Pa came out of the garage and ran to his son to protect him despite his own fears.

 

Pa stood between his son and the sheriff; one terrified and the other terrifying. Although of a similar build as the sheriff, Pa was quiet, kind and gentle. He was a mechanic who worked out of the garage in his back yard and was known as an honest and hard working man. As he stood before the sheriff, wiping his grease-stained hands on his stained overall’s, he kept shaking his head and insisting that his son was not responsible for the incident that had brought the law down to his home. He maintained that if Zach had assaulted Jamie Wilcox with his lunch box then it was purely self-defense. He reminded the sheriff that Zach may have an anxiety disorder and a personality disorder but that he was not an aggressor; he was the victim of some of the boys bullying him and humiliating him because of his hardships. He pleaded and begged for some understanding on the sheriff’s part but the sheriff was a hard man with a hard head and what little kindness he possessed did not extend to “kooks & crazies”. His retort to Pa was to suggest that if Zach was such a problem then he should be interned in an asylum. 

 

Regardless of his inability to educate the sheriff, Pa managed to keep the sheriff at bay for a few minutes but the sheriff had the upper hand and he kept approaching.  Suddenly, the back door of the house burst open and out came Ma wearing matching sundress and apron, and wielding a large wooden spoon. She was screaming at the sheriff to get back in his car and off her property. Ma wasn’t normally a confrontational person, but she’d been defending her special boy at any cost for quite some time. 

 

Ma came right down into the yard next to Pa, who was sweating profusely by now, and pulled Zach by the sleeve so that he would be directly behind her.  All the while, the sheriff kept approaching; yelling that he would take them all in if Zach didn’t come with him peacefully and immediately. Ma could tell this stand-off was not going to end well so she tried to reason with the sheriff but he was in no mood to be reasonable or understanding. He was just like the bullies at Zach’s school – mean and nasty because mental illnesses scared them and they wouldn’t admit to fear so instead chose to denigrate, bully and stigmatize. 

 

When Zach saw the lack of empathy in the cold grey eyes of the sheriff as he steadily approached them, he could no longer control his distress and he broke down into big gulping tears. Both of his parents turned to comfort him and as his mother took him into her arms the sheriff saw his opportunity and he swiftly and forcefully placed Pa in handcuffs and pushed him to the ground. Wasting no time, he turned and pulled Zach from the arms of his mother and down to the ground next to his father where he put tie wraps around Zach’s wrists. As he hauled him to his feet and led him to his patrol car Ma kept pace; all the while beating the brawny shoulders and back of the sheriff with her wooden spoon and screaming at him to let her son and husband go free.

When they reached the patrol car the sheriff shoved Zach onto the trunk of the car and turned to deal with the screeching woman making his blood pressure rise. He pumped himself up to look as daunting as possible and, shouting at the top of his lungs, he told her to stop hitting him and calm down or he would arrest her as well for assaulting a police officer. Then he reached to his belt for the keys to the handcuffs and threw them at her; telling her to go let her husband loose. As she scurried off in tears to do so, the sheriff opened the rear door to his patrol car and pushed Zach inside. Then he got in himself, turned on the ignition and began to drive around the yard and back towards the driveway.

Meanwhile, Zach’s ma had freed his pa and they both ran after the sheriff’s car but to no avail. The sheriff had their son in custody and there was little they could do about it. The sadness and fear overwhelmed them and they clutched to one another and sobbed as they watched Sheriff Duane drive off with Zach’s face pushed against the window looking profoundly frightened and alone.

– sm palardy

The 10% Rule – A Poem

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 The 10% Rule

every life unfolds
on its own terms
every person fights for life
on their own terms

a game-plan for existence
life has the ball and is running
move right, move left, up and down
reacting to life and it’s vagaries

anguish, despair and vexation
the price of futile combat
life is complex and powerful
wielding weapons of mass depression

the constant worthless battle 
trying to control and manage
life is a formidable, tireless foe
yours and mine and theirs

the power is ours to do and make due
attitudes must be challenged
negative thoughts, feelings renounced
confidence and positivity breeds zest and zeal

the rule of 10% lives on
when life serves you torment and misery
become the 90% that transforms
life becomes wonder, victory, joy

– sm palardy



 

 

 

 

Scary People

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The above graphics will probably confuse most people since the group of people portrayed seem friendly and jovial. What’s scary about them? EVERYTHING! Thiimages24s post is about people that scare me and those that are most horrifying and damaging to me the most are not those whom are dismissive or nasty from the get-go.

The people who intimidate and unnerve me most are those that feign being supportive and encouraging when in fact they are judgmental, have no empathy and are the least compassionate.



 

I’m not only scared by these kinds of people, but they infuriate mdownload (38)e because I’ve had to face their unpleasantness, their dismissal of my difficulties and their determination to hanging on to their ignorance.

Why scared? I am ultra-sensitive and I have difficulty establishing interpersonal relationships. So ridicule, being misunderstood and REJECTION cause me to spin out of control. I isolate; I am injured psychologically and I absorb how people perceive me and turn it inwards. I feel unworthy of love and 3d0ba4b81da20163c780cd640f9ec2dcsupport, and I am despairing.

Somedays my sadness is so great that I feel I may lose control completely and drown in my own tears.

I wonder if that would satisfy my detractors? I wonder if my misery and sorrow would move their hearts or if they would stick to their perceptions because it suits them for me to be the ”black sheep” – the weird one – the troublesome one.

As for me, I am forlorn. I feel abandoned by some; rejected by others and completely
misunderstood by many. The attitudes and manner in which I have been treated has made download (27)me very despondent and wounded.

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To clarify, I must state that I suffer from 3 mental illnesses (they started in my teens and had go3-headed-dragon-3tten progressively worse until I was diagnosed 4 years ago) Bipolar Affective Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder.

I won’t go into details of all the symptoms, I’ll just say that all 3 affect my judgment, my self-esteem, my control and my ability to manage my life.

 



 

Crying Monster

So what am I to do about scary people and how they affect me? Do I simply accept their perception of me as truth? Do I spend my life lonely, anxious, and distressed? Do I internalize my feelings and invalidate myself? Do I keep avoiding close relationships for fear of abandonment or rejection? …

Well, that’s what I’d been doing for as long as I can remember and I am now putting all my efforts into renouncing these perceptions and beliefs about who and what I am and I will learn to love and accept myself!

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